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So, I know what you’re thinking. What is this chick talking about? Why is she being so mean? Well, I’m not trying to be mean, just a little real I guess. I’ve had a big spoonful of my own medicine this week and I am stronger for it. Hopefully!

Let’s start with the fact that I felt like a huge whiner this week. Even while starting to write about this I think, why? Why should I document this week’s emotional and physical roller coaster? Well, as with a lot of what I share with you, it’s meant to help or inspire. At the least give you the feeling that if you’ve gone through this, you are not alone.

Some of my whining and complaining came out of my mouth but most of it occupied my mind. Looking back there was no real reason for it other than my ego being bruised but when you’re in the moment it’s difficult to discern.  In my mind, I should have just been able to go back to the gym this week and return to my usual workouts. Apparently my body had other plans. Plans to be sore (oh so sore!), weak and even fail on me.

Ski Erg Machine

The pinnacle was the exercise with the Ski Erg machine. TWR got a new toy, aka the ski machine. I heard about it in my absence and was really  looking forward to using it. It’s similar to a tricep pull down but your motion is as it would be cross country skiing. I was excited about it because cross country skiing is in my blood. I don’t remember learning to ski, I just remember skiing. So I thought, good…something to get me back to positive thinking. Something to help boost my confidence. I was siked, let’s do this!

I get on, I have to do 10 rounds of 30 second intervals. DB recommends I shoot for 100 meters for each 30 seconds. First round, 91. Second, 91, third 93, forth 91 and so on. I’m not happy. After another round I’m being told that my movement’s not correct. By the 7th round my numbers fall into the 80s and I am really pissed. If it wasn’t for the huge sense of embarrassment my tears would’ve surely made an appearance. It was bad. It got worse after another person got on and I was being shown the correct way to use it. I KNOW that I needed to be corrected, I KNOW it wasn’t right for me to feel the way I did, but I couldn’t help it. I voiced my disappointed to DB and as usual he knew the right thing to say to try and motivate me to think differently. But trust me it didn’t happen instantly. There was a storm brewing in my head.

The bottom line though is that as my trainers and friends try to make me feel better and tell me it’s OK, it won’t be until I allow it to be. My negativity and discouragement is not helping me move forward and get back to my previous fitness level. The more I whine about it the longer it will take and the harder it’s going to be. Not to mention how it effects others. But it can be difficult to snap yourself out of it. The motivation of getting back to inspiring others helps a lot. Being hopeful about reaching my goal soon also helps. I’m just going to have to suck it up and do what I tell others to do. Quit whining and just do it.

I’ll let you know how next week goes. It’ll be turned up after last week, I was pulling the sled and working with some weights by week’s end so slowly I am returning to form. I got to work out with Matt at the end of the week too and he’s typically heavy on the weights. Normally I love that but when I used to do single arm rows with 30lb weights and now I’m back to 15lbs I again was disappointed. Keep thinking positive, right?

For right now, it’s icing and lots of water. These muscles are sore! Have I mentioned that?

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